I'm going to miss you. I already am.

I miss the old you. You need to grow up, face the fact that you're going down a path to self destruction, and do all you can to get off of it.  I miss talking about girls with you. I miss your strange antics from when we were younger. 

First your brother, now you. You don't have to follow his example. If you are reading this, I hope you know that I love and care for you, I just can't watch you destroy yourself anymore.  I have tried and tried to be a friend these past couple of months, but you can't seem to chose the right. 

I wish I would have listened to my mother when she told me that you weren't a good influence.  You aren't.  Had I listened to her this would not be as hard as it is.  

Even if you went straight again how would I know you weren't lying to me? You have so many times before.  Isn't it sad how I can't trust a single word you say?

I'm sorry you're going no where, I'm sorry you dropped out of school, I'm sorry you do drugs, I'm sorry you're going to Juvie, and I'm sorry you were kicked out of your house.  But most of all, I'm sorry we can't be friends anymore.

The Fireman (based on a book by Ray Bradbury)

In a world of peace and solitude.

Is a man with the upmost attitude,

For a living he kills hopes and dreams

It does nothing but mend his seams

Who is this man you may ask

The title of his job is his task

Fireman

Literature and all is burned

‘cuz of this nothing’s learned

The fireman’s favorite game

Is to watch the horrid flame

What is the detention

Of a persons contention?

Fireman

Do they feel remorse?

Are they happy with their course?

Like perfume Kerosene is

The pleasure is not yours, it’s his

In a world of peace and Solitude

Is a man with the Upmost attitude

Fireman

Hear the Call

Shadows of the mind, We fight the battle

I’ll let my light shine, This, I can Handle

Listen to my eyes, They’re screaming for you

Forever are lies, You cannot undo

Hear the Call, I’m fighting strong

Give me a hand, Together, We can.

Hear the call, And Give it your All

Together we Stand, Divided we fall

Pain is showing through, Starting to weaken

Change my attitude, What was I thinking

Fear is in my mind, You let go of my hand

I Strayed from the line, This was not my Plan

Hear the Call, I’m fighting strong

Give me a hand, Together, We can.

Hear the call, And Give it your All

Together we Stand, Divided we fall

Enough of thinking I’m the only one

Sure of the ones that I hold and Love

Tonight We’ll end this once and for all

The Light is shining bright in awe

Hear the Call, I’m fighting strong

Give me a hand, Together, We can.

Hear the call, And Give it your All

Together we Stand, Divided we fall

Carnival

It was a friday night
first day of the carnival
the time was right
the stars were bright, the moon was full
I kissed your lips not once but twice
it meant the world to me.

Eleven 11

So insecure
I've been kicked to the curb
I'm gonna tell you softly
How much you mean to me
I'll try to endure
but just to be sure..

I'm making a wish at eleven eleven
I'm not going to lie girl,
in my head you have been
doing the same at eleven eleven
just one more wish
and girl it's true
I want to be with you.

Is it the cure?
The sign we can't ignore?
The burning in our hearts is
longing for just a kiss
Is this feeling pure?
Well, just to be sure..

I'm making a wish at eleven eleven
I'm not going to lie girl,
in my head you have been
doing the same at eleven eleven
just one more wish
and girl it's true
I want to be with you.

I wish
I wish you
I wish you and I...

I'm making a wish at eleven eleven
I'm not going to lie girl,
in my head you have been
doing the same at eleven eleven
just one more wish
and girl it's true
I want to be with you.
With you.

Knowing

A dark attack

A sinking feeling takes over

All hope seems lost

I should just give up forever

Why even try?

It will just blow up in my face.

Maybe I'm wrong,

but the past I can't erase.

I'm in and I'm out

I feel the pain, it's growing

I'll stand up and shout

the worst part was knowing.

"Remember Me"

Thinking of you, I'll send my condolence
There's nothing left, all but my footprints
I hope that I've left you with something of value
Something to show you that yes, it was true

I'm moving on
Yes, I'm moving on
A thousand Miles
Was worth the while
I'm moving on
I'll get along just fine

We had a great run, we thought we would win
But now it's all over, patience worn thin
don't be sad it's over, be glad that it happened
When I look back I can't help but grin

But now...
I'm moving on
Yes, I'm moving on
A thousand Miles
Was worth the while
I'm moving on
I'll get along just fine

A momentary setback
you'll land on your feet
"When you're famous,
Remember me,
Remember me,
Remember me."

I'm moving on
Yes, I'm moving on
A thousand Miles
Was worth the while
I'm moving on
I'll get along just fine

BYU!!!

To be a Cougar is my present goal.  Not literally  the feline, but a proud student attending Brigham Young University in Provo, Utah.  Going to BYU has not always been my goal for a college, but just within the past four years I have realized that it is probably the very best place for me to attend.  Sure, I'm going to miss my friends who, hate, detest, or don't care for BYU, but I believe that through the social and educational aspects of the school that it will be a breeze to find new ones.

Not only does the school have the educational and social dominance over others, it has an amazing religious program that will help me grow closer to the gospel and ultimately get closer to my Father in Heaven and Celestial Glory.  Many people sign off BYU because it is so demanding religiously, but I believe that people who go through the hardships and do all they can to attend can only become better people  through their experiences. I'm sorry to say, but those who look at BYU with a negative mindset are truly foolish and missing out.

My application is nearing completion.  All I have left to do is write an essay on a hardship I have overcome in my life, and "How awesome I am and why BYU should want me".  I have completed my Ecclesiastical endorsements and am very excited to hear back.

P.S.

My band, HUMBLE EVEREST released our very first studio song this Thursday.  the song title is, Fool, it is about a girl who is with a jerk boyfriend.  We are planning on going back into the studio on Thursday to record our second song, Memory of You.  Keep in touch and "Like" us on Facebook! (OH!!! I'm not in the picture because I wasn't there the day the Photographer came... :/ )